Dil: a heart.

“stone-hearted”

that feels like a faraway fantasy 

one i’d want to be in 

kill this dil 

throw this heart away

it just feels too much 

too fast;

too strong 

too deep.

i’d much rather favor my brain 

i want to 

but this dil 

it knows too much

knows me too well

and its not worth it 

because this damned thing won’t listen 

won’t behave rationally 

i can’t explain to it 

that people don’t value the depth

of what it feels

how much it feels 

it’s gravity, it’s intensity

that 

no. 

body. 

cares. 

it’s let down, it breaks,

over and over and over again

and every time 

it has to pick it’s broken pieces 

and place them back together 

start beating, like a champ (my foot.) 

wouldn’t it be better if i kill this dil?

and one day i will

—the Queen of Black Hearts

~ r.a.w